wooo...2009..i don't know bout you guys, but i still feel kinda stuck in two-oh-eight. it's like, maybe it takes some getting used to. in classes, i ocassionally date my papers 2008. no kidding. maybe cos part of me feels old. i can actually feel it, you know? the tangible feeling, of responsibilities, of unmatched expectations, of unmet goals on my shoulders, whom might i add does not feel capable or developed enough to handle all this..... yea, 21 this year. we all go through it right? some of us take it in stride but i am not sure i can do it. really. 21 is the threshold into adulthood. and along with it comes mortgages, and other stuff. like, god forbid, sagginess...=) you know how i am, i am too playfull for my own good, i am a procrastinator, i look at life differently, like everything can (and i often do) be taken for granted, i am very empty-headed, like most of the time i go about doing things while thinking about other things, like there was this time i washed my face...with shampoo, that kinda stuff. too carefree you know? it's not something i am proud of, but that's me, the way i look and go through life, is like, for want of a better term, a kid.
so for this post for 2009, i want to list down my achievements, my hopes and dreams, my failures and regrets, and any other thoughts i can come up with. they are not all, of course since i may leave out a few. but here goes..we'll start of with...
Achievements
this is a hard one. i honestly can't really come up with anything....
- i have really great friends. everyone of you, even though i do not say it, you guys are the best.
- i can play a few music instruments, albeit not as good as i'd hoped i'd be.
- i can drive pretty well, and the fastest (shhh..) i've driven is 220kph.
that's about it, unless you guys can gimme some. =)
Failures & Regrets
now THIS is easy, although much, much more painful..
- i regret that i never spend time or effort enough to get to know andrew better. even though i had his back, i just wish and wish that he'd be here now to grow up together.
- i regret that i played too much (remember my character up there?) and never really studied, that my parents can't say that oh my son is on a scholarship to Harvard or Yale...i imagine it would have been great for them..
- i regret that i never treated my exes well enough. even though they'd beg to differ, but there are things i'd go back in time to do for them if i could...
- all the wasted time i spent doing everything i want but should not have, and not doing things i must and should.
- knowing that i treat my God like he is not there but He is always there and willing to forgive.
depressing..anyone care to add anything?
Hopes & Dreams
- graduate as soon as i can to repay the kindness my parents so lavishly and unconditionally gives to me.
- spend every second of my life making it more worthwhile, to make an impact in this world before i've to meet my Maker...
- if i'd ever pull myself together again to love another girl, she'd know that i can't live without her and she will not want to either without me.
- keep in touch with friends, and not be afraid of the awkwardness that WILL come with it especially with people that i am not close to but that they'll know that i care and i've got their back.
- show my parents i love them and that i appreciate them with everything that i do.
- own a fleet of Porches, among them the 997 911 GT3.
- and then go on to break 350 kph...or maybe 400..
- drive competetively.
- be able to play the piano, while doing justice to music.
- write a book.
- live a healthy lifestyle, no smoking, no shisha, booze only socially, keep my body fit.
- try to keep my W201 in tip top shape, and remodel it after the evo2.
that should be it..i know for this one no one can tell me what else to add..
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that should just cut it for year 2009. at the end of this year, i'd like to have more things to add to achievements, with none in my regrets, and new stuff for my dreams...not that a 911 is anywhere within reach.. ;)
Paramore - Decode
so for this post for 2009, i want to list down my achievements, my hopes and dreams, my failures and regrets, and any other thoughts i can come up with. they are not all, of course since i may leave out a few. but here goes..we'll start of with...
Achievements
this is a hard one. i honestly can't really come up with anything....
- i have really great friends. everyone of you, even though i do not say it, you guys are the best.
- i can play a few music instruments, albeit not as good as i'd hoped i'd be.
- i can drive pretty well, and the fastest (shhh..) i've driven is 220kph.
that's about it, unless you guys can gimme some. =)
Failures & Regrets
now THIS is easy, although much, much more painful..
- i regret that i never spend time or effort enough to get to know andrew better. even though i had his back, i just wish and wish that he'd be here now to grow up together.
- i regret that i played too much (remember my character up there?) and never really studied, that my parents can't say that oh my son is on a scholarship to Harvard or Yale...i imagine it would have been great for them..
- i regret that i never treated my exes well enough. even though they'd beg to differ, but there are things i'd go back in time to do for them if i could...
- all the wasted time i spent doing everything i want but should not have, and not doing things i must and should.
- knowing that i treat my God like he is not there but He is always there and willing to forgive.
depressing..anyone care to add anything?
Hopes & Dreams
- graduate as soon as i can to repay the kindness my parents so lavishly and unconditionally gives to me.
- spend every second of my life making it more worthwhile, to make an impact in this world before i've to meet my Maker...
- if i'd ever pull myself together again to love another girl, she'd know that i can't live without her and she will not want to either without me.
- keep in touch with friends, and not be afraid of the awkwardness that WILL come with it especially with people that i am not close to but that they'll know that i care and i've got their back.
- show my parents i love them and that i appreciate them with everything that i do.
- own a fleet of Porches, among them the 997 911 GT3.
- and then go on to break 350 kph...or maybe 400..
- drive competetively.
- be able to play the piano, while doing justice to music.
- write a book.
- live a healthy lifestyle, no smoking, no shisha, booze only socially, keep my body fit.
- try to keep my W201 in tip top shape, and remodel it after the evo2.
that should be it..i know for this one no one can tell me what else to add..
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
that should just cut it for year 2009. at the end of this year, i'd like to have more things to add to achievements, with none in my regrets, and new stuff for my dreams...not that a 911 is anywhere within reach.. ;)
Paramore - Decode
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