byebye...

so, i've had this blog forever. it has been with me through it all, and now, i think, it's time for it to rest. 

 

i am starting a new blog, another more or less the same one, where i write my poetry, and pen down various, if random, thoughts.

 

 this will be the last post ever here. lol.kinda nostalgic and sad.

here's the link to my new one.

 

http://blankcanvassesandblankpages.blogspot.com/ 

 

sniff..byebye...

jing

my greatest fear...

to want something, upon getting it
bloodstained hands will sully and mar
a priceless jewel in those hands does fit
will i then break, destroy and scatter afar?

the greatest of these i have in mine heart

that when in them do you trust your soul
in my love will i blacken, harden and turn to coal?
if perfection is as perfection deserves
will i then, God, turn it to something perverse?
if you then trust your whole to my shelter
how can i not but want to make it better?
if you then give your welfare to my responsibility
will i harm you in my human inability?

my greatest fear, finally i do now know
if come to pass unforgivable and executionable
if you, sacred one was entrusted to me
all those listed above we both come to see.

My Greatest Fear

~
i had an ephinany. i finally realise why i say whaat i say, and do what i do.

-jing-

this is a happy post...

i know i always appear, i dunno, emo? sad? on my blog, but that is not the case. usually, in person i am fun and overly animated. so i thought that when i sit and write, i should keep it more, down to earth and sedate...
but sometimes, i am just happy. :D
so no complaining, just expressing the love that i feel for my friends. to this, i am composing a song, but for now, listen to the song embedded up there. and know that, where ever you are, what ever is going on in your life, however bad circumstances are, i am thinking of you, i am rooting for you, i am praying for you. if you would call, i will answer and i will help you out to the best of my abilities, this i promise.

Colbie Caillat - Hold Your Head High
~

on an unrelated note, this is how i feel now.

Paramore - All I Wanted
~
so many things i want to say, but somehow, i never got around to saying them. sometimes, words are inadequate to express the fullness of ones feelings, a poor substitute, an ineloquent speaker.
i want to tell you that, last night, i was thinking of you, and hoping you have had dinner.
i want to tell you that, as i write my book, the many memories i've had with you shape my characters and the world they live in.
i want to tell you that, i am so sorry i am the way i am, that i phase out easily and is unattentive.
i want to tell you that, when i go jogging, even if my mind is blank and every other breath a battle, i remember you are stressed, and say a short prayer for you
i want to tell you that, hell, when you're married i will cry and cheer and give you a great big hug
i want to tel you that, though my tongue is occasionally tied, yes, i love you too.
i want to tell both of you i am sorry i lost contact, and i was not much of a friend to you when you were with me.
i want, above all, to say how proud i am to know you, that i am proud to call you as my brothers,
that i am proud to have such a talented sister,
that i am proud to have such a loving mother
that i am proud to have a righteous father
i am proud to call you friend, to walk this journey with you, to have brightened your eyes with laughter as you did mine, to have someone i can call a friend.

and that's not even half of what i have in my mind.

-jing-

Ashtar Command : Into Dust

guess who's back...

only for a bit. here's a list i do blog for
1. interesting things that happen in my life
2....

that's it.

no just kidding
2. new music or books or movies
3. or just random thoughts that appear in my head.

not much going on in my life lately, and thoughts in my head centre around my book, and how the story would evolve, the characters and the plot lines..so no, not much going on.

on the other hand. i have been reading loads. and i can't write a synopsis for every one of them, so i'll just say that they were awesome. here's the list of what i read.
1. Walden by Henry David Thoreau
dry reading, but seeing life in his perspective was very interesting.

2. Les Miserables by Victor Hugo
first time i read details of the French Revolution, interesting, and the power human love, and their capacity to try to be good even in evil times.

3. Brisingr by Christopher Paolini
this book was awesome. i am a fantasy addict, and his ideas on the workings of magic are fantastic. the bond between dragon and rider, so deep it defies and challenges the very limit of your imagination and my daring. i read it twice lol... great series..

there's a few more, but this post is getting way long. i'm reading Shutter Island now by Dennis Lehane. it's a bit of a departure for me in terms of the feel of the book. but. it's kinda great. it's keeping me on a knife-edge for untold number of chapters now. the story is unfolding fast, but i still have no idea what's goin on, never having seen the trailer to the movie.

any one of these books are great. i have a whole list i have to get.

peace

-jing-

Kate Voegele - Forever and Almost Always

a few facts on Vin Diesel...

you know, THE Vin Diesel, of the Fast and Furious fame? well, these are some facts you don't know bout him.

1. Vin Diesel doesn't wear sunblock; the sun wears Vinblock
2. Vin Diesel can set ants on fire with a magnifying glass. At night
3. When Vin Diesel plays any video game, god-mode automatically turns on
4. Vin Diesel defied MC Hammer, and touched it
5. Vin Diesel is the SI unit used to measure fear
6. As Vin Diesel approaches zero, zero runs like a little bitch
7. Vin Diesel's blood type is WD-40
8. When Vin Diesel put on the One Ring, the Nazgul just said "f*** it"
9. When Vin Diesel gets pulled over, he lets the cop off with a warning
10. When you rearrange the letters in Vin Diesel, it reveals his credo; 'I End Lives'

bet'cha didn't know that huh..
http://4q.cc/index.php?pid=top100&person=vin

-jing-

i know, nonsense right XD

5 songs for you...

my brains are all over the place now..

firstly, i am sad, looking through high school pix. and then i remembered you boi. and i am so sorry, sorry that i don't think of you often enough. sorry that i come visit you once a year. this'll all change dude. i'll be by on monday.

secondly, i am happy, happy for this great summer that i had. oh my god the memories that i've gained, i can't describe. this is probably the best time of my life. true story.

thirdly, i am confused. have i ever told you about this rule i had? no? well.

i have this rule about not driving people's car if i can help it.
side's that, a list of the importance of people to me: God > Family > Friends > Everyone else
on relationships:
no dating anyone two years younger
no dating a friend's ex if i can help it
no dating between close friends
no dating guys (no miscommunication here)
no dating people in the same church

i think i may add to the list. as to why i am confused, well. i think i may be breaking one of the rules. damn it. i am a man of my words. not if i can help it. but, the heart has reasons that reason can not understand.

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another few songs to blow thy brains out:

1. Civil Twilight - Letters From The Sky
2. Peter Pan - Jauh Mimpiku
3. Theory Of A Dead Man - Not Meant To Be
4. Kate Voegele - Who You Are Without Me
5. One Republic ft Sara Bereilles - Come Home (acoustic)

*bam* all over my front porch.. ;)
~

-jing-

Civil Twilight - Human

haha this is so cute..

-jing-